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25 Apr 2020

I wish I had deployed

I wish I had gone downrange

I wish I had caught a bullet

I wish I had died

It would be easier to explain

I would not have to explain myself

I could live in peace, fully dead

No one would have to listen to my shit

I would not have to think about to my future

I could just exist

Let me die please

Let it all end

Make it the fault of the Army

My ma would get 400k

I would get peace

It would be a win-win

I do not matter as much as people think

They do not either

No one is prepared for the meaningless of life

At least I semi-accept it

I will be here to the end

Dead or alive, I will be here till the end